Week of Reflection in Hawaii: Vision of Happiness
Often times we get so caught up in the negative, that we lose sight of the “Happy“. I am here in Hawaii to not only sort out the negative, but also create a plan towards happy. In my current state of mind, I am not happy- my soul is exhausted. Hawaii is definitely helping with the healing process by putting me in a beautiful, beachfront, solitary confinement. Within confinement, I am resting, praying, writing, and thinking. This post is going to be perfect to me because I am going to close my eyes and write what my vision of happy is. This is my reflection in Hawaii…
Happiness is to me being on the beach. Laying in the sand and just watching the waves. Happiness is having friends that are genuinely my friends. I want to maintain friendships where mutual trust can be established, and we have each others backs. I would like to know what it feels like to not be alone; no one is ever happy being alone. I think happiness is in the process that it takes to get there. I want to be apart of, contribute to, learn from, and reciprocate from. I want family. I know that in order to have family, I will have to create that on my own. I want my own family where I can cater and be loyal to them and in turn they both love and care about me. I am not asking for them to be perfect; but I don’t want them to be level 10 dysfunctional. I know that is possible because I see other people with 90% solid family structure.
I want to be a mom more than anything, thank is my ultimate state of happy. I have always wanted to be a mom, but I wanted a husband first. Honestly, I want to be a mom more than anything. I would make their lunches everyday, then take the kids to soccer practice while the maid cleaned the house. I want to get married to someone who needs me as much as I need him. I would like to marry a man who is a leader! A man that both mentally stimulates me and challenges me to be better. Those are the things I would in-turn offer to him twice over. I would like a successful husband who has vision. I would take his vision and make it my own. I would wake up and go to sleep with his vision everyday until he made it happen. I would be his support and second in command…. us against the world. He would see me as an asset. Together, both my husband and I would be positive examples to our kids, and within our community. First and foremost he must have a relationship with God.
I think the above is a good start. I have the beach, I have real friends… I am going to start speaking and praying for the other things into existence. Every time the bad comes up, I can use this as my guide.
Week of Reflection in Hawaii: Vision of Happiness…
